My Wonderland.

Daily trials, a slip, a smile.
Come and walk my path a while.
Don't be shy, I'll pull you close,
I'll show you what I fear the most.

Here's the key, the choice is yours.
Do you dare pass through the door,
To leave the normal world behind,
And catch a glimpse of what's inside?

Be careful as you reach across,
Into this world that never was.
It might sink deep into your bones
And start to feel a lot like home.

Step into a world of dreams,
Held in place by breaking seams,
Feel the ghosts of doubt begin
To settle deep beneath your skin.

Don't be scared, here take my hand,
I'll show you through my wonderland.
Come and taste a broken soul
Tumbling down the rabbit hole.

A final word, no going back,
Now you're here inside the black.
Come along, there's much to see
Let's start with splintered memories.

Of places lost and moments taken
Stolen words and big mistakes
That shaped the world you see before you
Ripped apart the things that I knew.

All these things that made me hide
Away deep down inside my mind.
And fill the endless sapphire sky
With scattered dreams and fireflies.

If you wish to hear my past
I'll take you to a world of glass
Where crystal coated symphonies
Play through leaves of windswept trees

And tell the story of a child
Who's all alone and very tired
Of all the games that others play
The twisted, senseless, useless blame.

Trying hard to play the roles
Forged beyond her own control,
Parent, daughter, leader, monster,
Leading you into the slaughter.

As these words hang in the air,
You'll see someone who isn't there.
A flicker in the eerie night,
A figure just beyond your sight.

And then I'll whisper in your ear,
Secrets just too soft to hear.
Watch you jerk and twist and shake
As your nerves begin to quake.

I'll smile and pull you onwards still,
No time to waste, no time to kill.
There's more to see, there's more to do
Before my nightmares get to you.

For nothing here is what it seems,
These velvet coated fantasies
Hide the truth that stalks these halls
The rotting skin and teeth and claws,

That linger just a breath away
Watching every move you make.
Feel your skin begin to prickle
And your sweat begin to trickle.

Why so pale? We've barely started.
Isn't this just what you wanted?
Dig in deep and have a peek
Through morbid curiosity.

I've spent so long here treading water,
Caught between the tears and laughter.
That nowadays I barely see,
This spiraling insanity.

Or all the strange and frightening things
That hanging on the edge can bring.
But all the dirty things that creep
And crawl and keep me from my sleep.

Are there no matter how I try
To bury them away inside.
I can hear them in the walls
Late at night with dripping jaws,

They whisper cold dark things and say
We're part of you, there's no escape.
Come on dear, don't try to run
We've only just begun the fun.

And now we've come to the best part
The fear that curls around my heart.
Some days I think I've gone insane
Through all the stress and fear and pain.

Today I'm fine, because you see
It's nice to have you here with me.
I spend all day here, locked within.
Dreaming dreams of stretching skin.

That hangs over the wretched bones
Of those I really thought I'd known.
And drapes over their burning eyes
As jagged lips spout forth their lies.

Dark smoke billows all around,
And fills the air with awful sounds.
Feel your heart begin to race
Whisper prayers to leave this place,

Wish and wish and wish in vain
You could return to somewhere sane.
Tears form, you're on your knees
You'll find no sympathy from me.

For when you're sure you've lost your mind
I'll turn and leave you there behind.
And as the fear wraps 'round your bones
You'll realize you're all alone.